A Christmas From the Heart

On this christmas eve I write this from the bottom of my heart. I'm greatful that I have such amazing friends, and that I have a family that supports me in everything and anything I do. My family taught me the spirt of christmas and I will never forget it. Christmas is actually a time of giving not reciving. I'm thankful that I recive gifts and all, but I like giving more so. It's who I am and the way I was raised. When I give someone a gift on christmas and I see their face light up with happiness and joy. My heart feels like it's going to explode with joy and happiness. Because I was able to bring that person happiness. Christmas to me is my favorite holiday of all because it brings people so much joy and it's the spirit of giving that is always on my mind. My friends sometimes joke around and say that I should be selfish and think about myself for once. And I tell them I can't be selfish. I just can't. It's like not in my vocabulary or my heart. I'm always there when someone needs a friend and someone to talk to. I like helping people, and I'm good at it. So Christmas for me is the best time of the year. And it brings me joy just to share it with the people I love the most. Have a very Merry Christmas!!!!!<3
                                                                                
                           

Lesson: Friends

This lesson we learn everyday but just don't seem to understand. We keep repeating the lesson over and over again. It's the way some people are, but I think that they could open up their eyes a little bit more and see more of why. And understand each other more. We all have misunderstandings. That's a part of life. We all have problems. And that's a part of life. Some problems can be fixed and some you just have to live with. We are suppose to change what we can and what we have to. And then the rest we have to accept it as is. So I learn from everything I can that way I'm prepared for life when it want's to hit me with it's best shot. But it also helps when you have friends there to support you. I know that it helps me! But friends wouldn't be friends if we didn't try to work things out, or if we didn't get into fights and then make up after it. It's all a part of life that we all go through it's just how it is. And I learn from it cuz I choose to. What about you??

What I Always Wanted, But I Never Truly Had

There was a time when we were just friends.
And then it all had to come to and end.
I still remember that look in your eyes.
You had begged me not to cry.
You said you had no choice but to go.
So now I'm here standing alone.
But you had to go.
I couldn't hang on any longer.

You turned out to be. What I always wanted, But I never truly had.
You would be here one minute and gone the next.
You hardly ever would say anything anymore.
I use to remember how it use to be, but when I do it turned out to be.
What I always wanted, But never truly had.

I realize now that I lost you long ago.
And that it's no use to try anymore.
You went your way. And I went mine.
You said that you had wasted your time.
But I don't think you got that quite right.
You weren't a waste of my time.
You taught me how to stand here alone on my own.

You turned out to be. What I always wanted, but never truly had.
You would be here one minute and gone the next.
You hardly ever would say anything anymore.
I use to remember how it use to be, but when I do it turned out to be.
What I always wanted, But never truly had.

oh.......oh.......oh......

You turned out to be......... What I always wanted, But never truly..............Had....................<3

P.S. These are song lyrics that I wrote myself it's not my normal blog. But I hope you love it anyways. I've been working on it for awhile and finally finished it. :)

Your Touch

Your touch is the one that will last forever. I will cherish it forever. I remember it every moment of everyday. The way you hold me to your chest, and when I look up you're smiling. I get a warm fuzzy feeling inside. And then when I look into your eyes. I melt in your arms. Your touch makes even the worst feeling I have go away. For those few seconds that you touch me I feel like I'm flying. And it's just you and me in the room. Nothing else in the world matters anymore. Nobody has ever been able to do that to me. It's like you're an angel sent from heaven above. Just for me. And I will never ever forget your touch.

The Beats Of Life

This heart that's inside me no longer beats just to stay alive. It beats for others to encourage them to survive. My heart beats for other people so they will survive. They will always live on in my heart. That is how they live. You may not see them, but they live on through me. I lend them a piece of my heart for them to take. And they do so that they will beable to remember their loved ones forever. People will always live on in precious memories that can last forever. But they will also survive with the beat of a heart. A lot of people have a piece of my heart. And a lot of people don't some are dead and still live on in my heart and some are alive today. Either way this heart that I have is not really mine. It's one to share for everyone to survive. We all live off one heart. And togather we all mean something to each other. Wheater it's love, friendship, etc. But we will never forget each other because we'll all remember each other. And live on in memories that last forever. And since we all share on heart. Their piece of heart will never be forgotten. It will live on with the rest of us. For us to remember now and always.

Someone Like You

I've searched far and wide for someone like you. I've went through pain and suffering just to get to you. And now that I have you I refuse to let go. You don't know my past and you don't know my future. But I do know that you understand me better then I even understand myself. God has brought me to you for a reason and why that reason is we may never know, but I choose to make the best of what is. And when I first met you I thought it would be impossible. There is not a thing about you that I don't like. I don't know why you make me feel this way. But I pray to god that it doesn't go away. This feeling that I get when you're around it makes me feel like I'm a whole person. And I'm not just half. You are the other half of me and I think you don't realize that yet, but soon you will and everything will be revealed in time. Until then only time can tell what will happen. But whatever it is it must be ment to be. It's a little something I call Destiney. <3

There Really Are No Words

To other people my life may seem dull and gray. But it's the only thing I have. People say that I should have a better life, but I don't want to because I like it just the way it is. Life is short and full of bumps, and I intend to enjoy it. Who knows when my life will end that is up to God. But when it does I know that I will be filled with memories that will last forever. No matter what life I'm in. I will cherish those memories forever and ever. Because those memories are all I have. To you they maybe just a piece of paper, but to me they are my life. And a life of memories is worth living for. When you love someone so much to the point that it actually causes you physical pain. Then you will know what I feel. And why I feel this way. But until then you all will always be asking the same questions over and over and over again.

Hang On Tight

Each guy is different, so this may not apply to your guy. A guy likes to be the one in charge. Unless he's shy and funny. Then that's a little different. Each guy has a mischivious side to them. That they can't deny. But guys have pride that hurts if you break it. Sometimes you have to be patient with them, and others you have to be straight forward. They want support from you at whatever it is they're doing. Unless you know it's wrong. Then I don't blame you for not supporting them. Guys are stubborn and don't always want help or listen to advice that might help them. But you keep trying anyways. Bottom line is don't give up if you know that it will help them and that you know that you're right. But sometimes we just have to wait and watch. These things have to be perfect. You can't just storm in there and be the boss because that would cause even more problems. So just hang on tight and enjoy the right. And whether you get rewarded at the end depends on how much you really want this. So good luck! <3

Love&Relationships

Love is not just a piece of paper. And it's not something to be handled lightly. It's something to be careful with. And if done properly can lead to great things. Relationships can be great, but only if you pull your half of the weight. Both of you have to meet in the middle otherwise you relationship will be off balance and it can come crumbling down to the ground. And the hardest thing is to tell that person that you love them. Telling them that you like them is one thing. But telling them that you love them is another. And each is hard. But after you do you feel happy and excited. You feel like you just did something right. And if they don't say it back. It's not the end of the world. You will go on. You will keep living the life that god planned for you. And you will find happiness someday! And when you do you'll know!

My Time

My time to go is very near. Don't cry for me just be happy because you will know that I'm with you always. I'm not just looking down at you. I'm with you. I am a part of you. I'm inside of you. I've been on this planet long enough. I lived my life and now it's your turn. Live it well and do not waste it. And cherish each moment as if it were your last. Life is very short and full of mistakes. But we learn from them and try not to repeat them. So make as many mistakes as you can. Because then you won't have to guess anymore you'll know. I'm here to guide you along the way. When you need me I'm here. Even though you can't see me. I will never disapper. I will always live forever right inside your heart. So if you cry, cry tears of joy for you will see me again real soon. This isn't the end and this isn't good-bye. This is the start of a new chapter in a new life.

My Heart

People love and people hate that's just life. But when each time it takes a little piece of your heart then you'll see the pain I feel. Friendships that are lost, relationships scattered to pieces, and people who died. Each time that happened each of them took a little piece of my heart with them. And I'll never see that piece again. You only have so much heart in you. And then it will be gone. So I try and hang on to what little I have left. And to protect it from getting broken and shattered. Life is already enough. So I don't need anything added to it. If there was a way to make life easier and painless I would take it. But I chose to take the road less traveled by. I chose to walk alone in the dark. All lonely and misunderstood. The only person that really understands me is me. And that's the way it will always be.

Images

Everyone has an image. Wheather it's good or bad that is up to you. Wheather it's soft and kind or it's mean and aggressive. But the thing is is that you hide behind that image. And pretty soon you let that image decide for you. And then after awhile it becomes a part of you. Under that image is the real you which you don't want anyone to see. You either don't like the person you are or your scared you'll get made fun of or something like that. Some people only show he real them to their loved ones, and sometimes some people keep hiding behind that image the rest of their lives. But that is their choice. Bottom line is.... Don't be afraid to be who you are. Who you are is who you are. God made you that way and you yourself is a precious work of art. But some of you don't realize that. You really need to. Because you can be so much more then you see with your own eyes. Try looking at yourself through someone elses eyes and then tell me that you aren't precius or worth anything. You will find that you are just as important to them. And that you will be so much more that you never thought possible in that person's eyes. So stop hiding.

The Most Common Situation

Now a lot of you that follow me on this blog know who I am and that I'm very good at giving advice so here is yet again another piece of advice for you. I have a friend that was shy and really liked this girl. So he came to me for help. I told him my opion and gave him some courage. The girl also came to me asking for help because she liked him. But on the other hand the girl was very discouraged about herself. So I gave her some advice that I thought would work. She kind of changed it though because she tends to be stubborn. But it did work. And now that they are both on the same page it's a lot easier for them. I know that the guy is a great guy with his true gentleman side hiding inside of him waiting to be unleashed. And I know that inside the girl is a young mature woman who is hiding inside her waiting to be unleashed too. I wish them both the best. I know that those to will go far. Now the point of this entry is that if you need help about a certain situation don't be afraid to ask for help. Especially the people you trust. That's what they are there for. You live and you learn. You learn from you mistakes. And from those mistakes you grow. So techniclly we never stop growing. Were always learning no matter where we are, or where we go.

Cinderella

I know that there are some people out there who want some advice about prince charming. No I'm not going to mention any names and embarress the people. But if you guys want some serious advice. Base your relationship on honesty, spirtual, or both. Trust me it works. And if the guy is not right for you then he's not who god wanted you to be with. It was just what I call them a lesson that was learned that god wanted you to learn. Even though it can happen over and over and over again and it's the same lesson. God feels like you didn't get the lesson all those other times. Or sometimes god wants you to look at only this part of the lesson for now. Like for example cheating. Let's say that prince charming was cheating on you with Repunzel. And you wanted to work it out. You didn't want to break up. You have to be willing to commit fully to a relationship in order to overcome any problems that you have as a couple. And if one's weaker and doesn't want to commit. You guys will have more problems. Let's say prince charming didn't want to commit. But you didn't want to break up and he did. You'd need to make him see your point and then you'll have to see his point. Then both of you have to come up with a compromise. A compromise is something where the both of you have to meet in the middle not just meet on one side but in the middle. But sometimes guys just don't like to listen and they want everything their way or no way at all. I'm sorry but if you have a guy like that. Get rid of him. He is not worth it. There is so much that your missing because your wasting your time on him. You'd be better off without him. You know he's not the right guy for you so if you stay with him your prince charming could slip right through your fingers just because your dating someone else at the moment. And then you might never get your prince charming. You might get someone close. But not the exact right one. Take marrige as my last example. People get married more then once right? Do you know why? Because that person changed. That person wasn't the right prince charming that that person thought they were. That's the other thing to watch for people are very deciveing now a days. That's what you have to watch for. I hope my advice helps those of you who asked for it, and those of you who need it, and those of you who just look at my blog just because. I really wish you guys the best. And thanks for all the love and support. You guys are the best. Good Luck! <3

Friends

When all else fails do you know the only two people that will be there for you. 9 out of 10 times it will be your mom or your best friend or friends. Like me for example I have a best friend that I've known for a really long time. She is there whenever I need her. Wheather it's an injury or it's an accomplishment or it's a break up or something. You see the best thing in the world is not a relationship it's a friendship. Because friendship lasts forever and very seldom do relationships. But friends. Friends you'll always have.

Dizzy

Do you ever get that feeling where your life is just spinning in circles and you wish it would just stop? But when it finally does you feel dizzy, sick, and some what relived. Your thinking "Now that that's over now I can relax." But then you hit another problem like it's a brick wall. How do you break through a brick wall? Everyone has there own ways. Each way is unique.

Does Life Really Have To Be This Way?

Life is tragic one minute and then great the next. Why? No one seemes to know the answer. You could live the perfect life you get everything you want. But you still won't be happy. Your life will not be satisfying because you find out that some people are not who they say they are. Take a relationship for example. You think that your boyfriend is loyal and sweet. Then one day your friend could walk up to you and tell you different. Now it's your choice to belive your friend or not. But I know either way it's going to hurt. But after you move on you will find a new person that's inside of you that you never knew. You never even thought you would become. You have changed for the good. You've become a better person. You'll be able to take care of yourself. And next time they won't be able to fool you again. And then you can finish it your way.

Why I am who I am

I awoke this morning and it dawned on me that we all are who we are for a reason. Some people may like and others won't. But underneath it all were all the same inside. Just like famous people. Yeah they may like all the attention but underneth they still have feelings, they're still human just like us. I am who I am today because that is what I've chosen to be. To be me and no one else. So just deal with it. And if you don't like it I don't care.